For Freedom Not For Beauty

For Freedom Not For Beauty

There's a beauty that lives so deep inside each of us.
There's a fickle eye that doesn't believe anything it sees.
There's a benefit in love that erases all doubt and believes good intentions.
There's an ear that isn't free enough to give the honest man the
benefit of the doubt cluttered by lies not-mentioned.

Since when is creativity subject to criticism?
When is honesty subject to a jury of fears who wouldn't believe rain
if it fell, or sun if it shined?

Sometimes a flower grows when no ones watching.
Sometimes a bird sings and no one hears.
There's a meadow no one runs on and a cloud no one names.

And what would the sky be with out the sun?
What would the earth be with out its rose?
They'd still be the sky and the Earth.

So perhaps there is a peace in becoming.
Perhaps the meaning is in the experience and not the sight.
Maybe a flower grows because it suffocates under ground.

Whether or not she is always noticed, beauty must become.

She doesn't look for an eye.
She doesn't listen for a voice.
She just becomes.

--Chrisette Michele

Complex

I hate the extra thinking and emotions that come when dealing with men...

Juke Box Love Song

Juke Box Love Song
by Langston Hughes

I could take the Harlem night
and wrap around you,
Take the neon lights and make a crown,
Take the Lenox Avenue busses,
Taxis, subways,
And for your love song tone their rumble down.
Take Harlem's heartbeat,
Make a drumbeat,
Put it on a record,
let it whirl,
And while we listen to it play,
Dance with you till day--
Dance with you, my sweet brown Harlem girl

Here's mine...LOL

I took my first car photo...lol. You know how everyone has a picture of themselves in their car for some reason?? I decided to be like everyone else this one time :)

You know you're a dentist when...

I had the worse nightmare last night. I dreamed my bottom 2 middle teeth had come out...lol. And my gums were inflammed and sore and all my teeth were crowded. It was terrible, I started to cry...lol. This was the worse one yet. I did dream a couple times that all my teeth had fallen out, not cute. But I think after all the years I spent in braces and all my dental work, for me to dream my teeth aren't straight anymore, that's worse than losing all of them...lol.

In other news, nothing too much is going on aside from school. I've been meeting a few guys, so we'll see how things turn out, maybe I'll find my potiential husband...lol. That's another dream...lol.

I'm not excited about all this snow, way too much coming. I feel like I'm getting sick again, I do not feel like myself at all. I've been missing my kickboxing class and everything, so I need to get this straighted out ASAP!

I applied to a new job, similar to the one I had when I was living in DC. I hope it works out, I love working in the community! Plus, I need something to keep my mind off of all this school work. I like classes and everything, but I have to keep busy with other things too or I'll go crazy thinking about school 24/7.

Well, I think that's it for now...

~Thoughts of a Lady

Relax...

Tonight was fun!!

First I went bowling with a bunch of friends from the dental school, then we went to lazer tag! I haven't done lazer tag in years...lol, so I enjoyed myself. I'm not the best bowler either but, it was still fun...lol.

I'm tired now, I have to work tomorrow too and Sunday. I have a lot of studying to do too, so busy busy busy. The weird thing is, I have more classes this semester, but I feel a less course load. I'm not as stressed. That is a good thing, and I think part of it has to do with the fact that I'm learning to not worry so much, and another part is that I'm praying more and it really relaxes me. I feel closer to God and more comfortable and happy with life in general.

I'm meeting so many people, I know a lot of ppl now...lol. Networking is always a good thing, it'll help me out in the future when it comes to bigger and better things, so I'm excited and looking forward to everything.

I had a oral presentation to do, to try and get funded for my research! Very tense and stressful weekend leading up to that point, but overall I think things went well and I was proud of myself :) Now I have to wait till March to see if I get funded, so prayfully I do. I really would like to get published, so I hope that's the next step!

Kings Feast is coming up in a couple weeks! I've been working on these decorations trying to get everything taken care of. I volunteer to help out, and then next thing you know, I'm doing everything...too much. But in the end it's worth it and I have fun and I make more friends, so I guess it works out.

I just need to make sure I'm not putting too much on myself. It's crazy because things haven't been going the way I planned, but things are working out for me regardless and I really feel blessed. I've accomplished soo much already and had wonderful opportunities and I feel like there is still a lot more for me to do. I'm only 24yrs old and I know I've had a rich life, in the sense of my experiences, education, and friendships. We'll see where things go from here, I can only go up...so I guess we'll see how high I can really go!!!!

~Thoughts of a Lady

2nd Semester

Classes start tomorrow and I'm semi excited...lol. Last semester was stressful and I had 7 classes, this semester I have 9 classes, so we'll see how this works out...lol. Last semester I worked on the weekends too, but this semester I'm going to try to cut back and prayerfully I won't have too many financial difficulties with my decision and I can focus on school and my research. I feel focused and more settled into the school, I think it'll be a good semester.

Guess what??? I'm going to be in a fashion show at the dental school for a multicultral group...LOL. I am not a model and have never done so...lol, but the group organizing the fashion show asked me a couple times so I decided to help out. I hope I don't make myself look crazy, I'll try to be fierce like ANTM...lol.

Nothing else is really going on, I'm just trying to make sure I have everything together for the week, because you can never be too prepared for this program lol. Well, I guess that's it, I'll keep you updated on my modeling skills, or lack thereof :)

~Thoughts of a Lady~