Life

Wow...Where to begin??? This summer has been crazy! Not at all what I expected, but a life lesson in the making.

Family: My grandmother passed last month. Although, she was sick and I knew the inevitable was going to happen...it still hurt. She was a beautiful person inside and out. And I am so blessed to have had her in my life :) She was my biggest supporter and I know she was proud and that means so much to me. My grandmother, mother, and I all have the same name "Idell". We went from 3 to 2 in the physical sense, but we will always have 3 in the spiritual sense.

Relationships: An emotional rollercoaster! I cannot begin to explain the emotions I have felt this year. It's apart of life and a growing experience that will only strengthen me as an individual and a partner.

School: Dentistry, Dentistry, Dentistry! I'm learning so much and taking advantage of every opportunity presented to me to move forward. I feel a stronger passion and desire to work in the community dentistry aspect every year. Prayerfully, I will be able to accomplish my goals to help others.

Friendship: I am blessed to have individuals in my life to help me, not hinder me! I love my friends and I pray that I am just as helpful to them as they are to me.

Life: It's a cycle of love, lost, growth, and experience. At the end of the day, I can only thank God for keeping me by his side daily. I know, if I didn't have my faith I would not have been able to deal with the circumstances thrown at me this year. I'm very appreciative that God has blessed me with a support system within myself and my environment to help me one step at a time :)

Blessed!

Hello,

Things are going well, I feel blessed! I know God is watching over me and showing favor upon me. Knowing GOD is a BEAUTIFUL blessing :)

~Lady

Greatness

Greatness is not measured by what a man or woman accomplishes, but by the opposition he or she has overcome to reach his goals. ~Dorothy Height

Strange

Today has been very strange, however, it's almost over and tomorrow is a NEW day! Lord knows I'm looking forward to it :)

For Freedom Not For Beauty

For Freedom Not For Beauty

There's a beauty that lives so deep inside each of us.
There's a fickle eye that doesn't believe anything it sees.
There's a benefit in love that erases all doubt and believes good intentions.
There's an ear that isn't free enough to give the honest man the
benefit of the doubt cluttered by lies not-mentioned.

Since when is creativity subject to criticism?
When is honesty subject to a jury of fears who wouldn't believe rain
if it fell, or sun if it shined?

Sometimes a flower grows when no ones watching.
Sometimes a bird sings and no one hears.
There's a meadow no one runs on and a cloud no one names.

And what would the sky be with out the sun?
What would the earth be with out its rose?
They'd still be the sky and the Earth.

So perhaps there is a peace in becoming.
Perhaps the meaning is in the experience and not the sight.
Maybe a flower grows because it suffocates under ground.

Whether or not she is always noticed, beauty must become.

She doesn't look for an eye.
She doesn't listen for a voice.
She just becomes.

--Chrisette Michele

Complex

I hate the extra thinking and emotions that come when dealing with men...

Juke Box Love Song

Juke Box Love Song
by Langston Hughes

I could take the Harlem night
and wrap around you,
Take the neon lights and make a crown,
Take the Lenox Avenue busses,
Taxis, subways,
And for your love song tone their rumble down.
Take Harlem's heartbeat,
Make a drumbeat,
Put it on a record,
let it whirl,
And while we listen to it play,
Dance with you till day--
Dance with you, my sweet brown Harlem girl

Here's mine...LOL

I took my first car photo...lol. You know how everyone has a picture of themselves in their car for some reason?? I decided to be like everyone else this one time :)

You know you're a dentist when...

I had the worse nightmare last night. I dreamed my bottom 2 middle teeth had come out...lol. And my gums were inflammed and sore and all my teeth were crowded. It was terrible, I started to cry...lol. This was the worse one yet. I did dream a couple times that all my teeth had fallen out, not cute. But I think after all the years I spent in braces and all my dental work, for me to dream my teeth aren't straight anymore, that's worse than losing all of them...lol.

In other news, nothing too much is going on aside from school. I've been meeting a few guys, so we'll see how things turn out, maybe I'll find my potiential husband...lol. That's another dream...lol.

I'm not excited about all this snow, way too much coming. I feel like I'm getting sick again, I do not feel like myself at all. I've been missing my kickboxing class and everything, so I need to get this straighted out ASAP!

I applied to a new job, similar to the one I had when I was living in DC. I hope it works out, I love working in the community! Plus, I need something to keep my mind off of all this school work. I like classes and everything, but I have to keep busy with other things too or I'll go crazy thinking about school 24/7.

Well, I think that's it for now...

~Thoughts of a Lady

Relax...

Tonight was fun!!

First I went bowling with a bunch of friends from the dental school, then we went to lazer tag! I haven't done lazer tag in years...lol, so I enjoyed myself. I'm not the best bowler either but, it was still fun...lol.

I'm tired now, I have to work tomorrow too and Sunday. I have a lot of studying to do too, so busy busy busy. The weird thing is, I have more classes this semester, but I feel a less course load. I'm not as stressed. That is a good thing, and I think part of it has to do with the fact that I'm learning to not worry so much, and another part is that I'm praying more and it really relaxes me. I feel closer to God and more comfortable and happy with life in general.

I'm meeting so many people, I know a lot of ppl now...lol. Networking is always a good thing, it'll help me out in the future when it comes to bigger and better things, so I'm excited and looking forward to everything.

I had a oral presentation to do, to try and get funded for my research! Very tense and stressful weekend leading up to that point, but overall I think things went well and I was proud of myself :) Now I have to wait till March to see if I get funded, so prayfully I do. I really would like to get published, so I hope that's the next step!

Kings Feast is coming up in a couple weeks! I've been working on these decorations trying to get everything taken care of. I volunteer to help out, and then next thing you know, I'm doing everything...too much. But in the end it's worth it and I have fun and I make more friends, so I guess it works out.

I just need to make sure I'm not putting too much on myself. It's crazy because things haven't been going the way I planned, but things are working out for me regardless and I really feel blessed. I've accomplished soo much already and had wonderful opportunities and I feel like there is still a lot more for me to do. I'm only 24yrs old and I know I've had a rich life, in the sense of my experiences, education, and friendships. We'll see where things go from here, I can only go up...so I guess we'll see how high I can really go!!!!

~Thoughts of a Lady

2nd Semester

Classes start tomorrow and I'm semi excited...lol. Last semester was stressful and I had 7 classes, this semester I have 9 classes, so we'll see how this works out...lol. Last semester I worked on the weekends too, but this semester I'm going to try to cut back and prayerfully I won't have too many financial difficulties with my decision and I can focus on school and my research. I feel focused and more settled into the school, I think it'll be a good semester.

Guess what??? I'm going to be in a fashion show at the dental school for a multicultral group...LOL. I am not a model and have never done so...lol, but the group organizing the fashion show asked me a couple times so I decided to help out. I hope I don't make myself look crazy, I'll try to be fierce like ANTM...lol.

Nothing else is really going on, I'm just trying to make sure I have everything together for the week, because you can never be too prepared for this program lol. Well, I guess that's it, I'll keep you updated on my modeling skills, or lack thereof :)

~Thoughts of a Lady~

New Year 2010!

New Year, New Beginnings! I'm excited to see what 2010 has in store for me!

~Loving Life~