Can you believe it's the end of June already? I feel like I have nothing ready for school. I have a thousand things to do and no time to do it. I need to make a check list and just run down the list as fast as possible. When things are not clean or clear around me, I feel cluttered in my head. I feel as if I haven't gotten anything accomplished, and I need to fix that feeling ASAP!
With every pay check I've been getting, I've been buying things I need for school here and there, so that when school starts I dont have a lot to get and ZERO in the bank...lol. I bought huge storage containers to start figuring out what I need and don't need, and try to get rid of some of this clutter. I'm ready for school mentally, but at the same time I feel not ready physically if that makes sense. Well, hopefully by August I'm ready on both ends!!!
I'm getting bored with my poet friend. He hasn't even taken me out yet and I haven't talked to him in about a week. I know I'm having more fun than anything else in this situation, but my mind changes so frequently. Actually, I haven't really liked anyone in a few years now. I've dated a lot, but I haven't been serious about anyone. I guess when I really really like someone I'll know and I won't have all these hesitations or doubts.
But I'm starting school soon anyway and I won't have as much free time as I do now, but I've told that to everyone. It's either now or never, I'll meet new ppl and you never know what will happen.
I've been so tired lately, and I know it's because I'm stressing out. And whenever I'm about to end a project, job, school, etc. I get real tired of everything and I get in that mode of "I'm ready to go, and move on to the next." I just want school to start and have everything magically work out at a snap of my fingers...lol. However, life doesn't work like that, no matter how bad I want it to.
I'm about to try and finish up some loose ends, hopefully the next time I'll be in a better spirit...lol.
~Lady
Monday, June 22, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Summer Fun!
I'm still so excited...lol!
Last night me and my girls went to see Chrisette Michele, Musiq Soulchild, and Anthony Hamilton in concert! It was soo good. I absolutely love Musiq, I was jammin' to all of his songs...lol. My favorite song at the moment is 'So Beautiful', that is a beautiful song! And I will say the three of us girls were way too cute...lol. I really needed that stress relief, I was so relaxed afterwards, it was truly a good time. I'll miss these times when school starts :(
Things are the same with my poet friend, we haven't been out yet on a date or anything. We call and text most of the time. I stay laughing around him, I don't know he's just funny. I'm not sure how serious I want this to be, but everyone is telling me to see what happens. I'm trying but that's hard for me to do, I analyze EVERYTHING...sigh. He is really a performer with a performer schedule, he never has time. I honestly feel he's doing too much, but I'm new to this performer thing so I don't really know how much of your time is consumed. I imagine it's hard and time consuming to promote yourself constantly. PLEASE BUY HIS CD FAST, SO HE HAS MORE TIME FOR ME....LOL!
Last Tuesday was fun...lol! I made a new friend at Lola's :), of course a poet. He's a very nice person and his son is a cutie too...lol, but a little young for me. It's always good to make friends because you never know how you could help someone or vice versa. And oh my goodness, this other guy me and my girl met at Lola's a couple weeks back fell real hard for her and was practically stalking her for a week, but I'm sooo glad she finally got that taken care of Tuesday. 'Niceness' was not the way to deal with him...he didn't realize how ridiculous he was acting.
I have no energy, I'm tired, kinda sick, I feel like I should be older than I am....lol. I think I'm doing too much socially, but I know when school starts no one will see me. I need to get all this out of my system now, so I can focus. I'm looking forward to school, I love being in a school setting, meeting with new people all the time, and learning. I already planned what programs and things I want to get involved in ...lol. At HU, I did a lot on campus, I knew soo many people, and participated in a lot of things and I want to do the same at UofM , but not on the same level. My course work will be a lot more demanding this time around and I understand I have to approach things differently, but I'm ready and excited!
I'm a little stressed about my financial situation when school starts, that's one area I'm not looking forward to, but I pray everything will work out for the best. I'll have to make some changes and arrange things differently to make everything work, but I keep telling myself I'm sure everything will be fine, just have faith.
Well, if you have some extra cash, let me know...lol. TTYL
Last night me and my girls went to see Chrisette Michele, Musiq Soulchild, and Anthony Hamilton in concert! It was soo good. I absolutely love Musiq, I was jammin' to all of his songs...lol. My favorite song at the moment is 'So Beautiful', that is a beautiful song! And I will say the three of us girls were way too cute...lol. I really needed that stress relief, I was so relaxed afterwards, it was truly a good time. I'll miss these times when school starts :(
Things are the same with my poet friend, we haven't been out yet on a date or anything. We call and text most of the time. I stay laughing around him, I don't know he's just funny. I'm not sure how serious I want this to be, but everyone is telling me to see what happens. I'm trying but that's hard for me to do, I analyze EVERYTHING...sigh. He is really a performer with a performer schedule, he never has time. I honestly feel he's doing too much, but I'm new to this performer thing so I don't really know how much of your time is consumed. I imagine it's hard and time consuming to promote yourself constantly. PLEASE BUY HIS CD FAST, SO HE HAS MORE TIME FOR ME....LOL!
Last Tuesday was fun...lol! I made a new friend at Lola's :), of course a poet. He's a very nice person and his son is a cutie too...lol, but a little young for me. It's always good to make friends because you never know how you could help someone or vice versa. And oh my goodness, this other guy me and my girl met at Lola's a couple weeks back fell real hard for her and was practically stalking her for a week, but I'm sooo glad she finally got that taken care of Tuesday. 'Niceness' was not the way to deal with him...he didn't realize how ridiculous he was acting.
I have no energy, I'm tired, kinda sick, I feel like I should be older than I am....lol. I think I'm doing too much socially, but I know when school starts no one will see me. I need to get all this out of my system now, so I can focus. I'm looking forward to school, I love being in a school setting, meeting with new people all the time, and learning. I already planned what programs and things I want to get involved in ...lol. At HU, I did a lot on campus, I knew soo many people, and participated in a lot of things and I want to do the same at UofM , but not on the same level. My course work will be a lot more demanding this time around and I understand I have to approach things differently, but I'm ready and excited!
I'm a little stressed about my financial situation when school starts, that's one area I'm not looking forward to, but I pray everything will work out for the best. I'll have to make some changes and arrange things differently to make everything work, but I keep telling myself I'm sure everything will be fine, just have faith.
Well, if you have some extra cash, let me know...lol. TTYL
Monday, June 8, 2009
Life 101
I tried one of these blogs a long time ago and it helped me release some stress, so I thought I'd try again...
Well, I start dental school very soon (a couple months) and I am too excited...lol. For as long as I can remember I always wanted to be a dentist and I have dedicated myself to accomplishing that goal. These past two years since I graduated from Howard University I have gone through soo much to get to this point (you just don't know...). I am so grateful that things are finally working out. I've realized that we plan certain things to happen at times most convenient for us, but God doesn't always plan things on our time, but always on His time. I feel when I stopped trying to control everything, God was finally able to work and now with Him holding my hand I'll be able to finish and remain successful.
I have been trying to get a bunch of socializing out of my system before school starts, because I won't have time for anything or anybody. So far, things have been quite interesting. The second I started going out regularly, I started to meet people immediately. I've met some interesting characters...lol, it's fun none the less. I love poetry, being at HU enhanced my love for poetry and 'the arts' in general. I love going to museums, reading books, meeting writers, African American art, etc. A friend of mines introduced me to 'They Say Restaurant" in Detroit and every Thursday I'm there listening to a very talented poet Marsha Carter. It is soo nice to go some place where the atmosphere is real relaxed and I can just chill and listen to local talent. I feel like a regular...lol, I feel bad if I miss a night. I'll miss it when I start school, I won't have much time during the week, maybe on the weekends?
My sister mentioned something yesterday that I've been thinking about all day. She said something along the lines of don't deny the past, but embrace it (wise for a 19 yr old..lol). I feel everything happens for a reason and every person we meet, comes into our lives for a reason. We may not understand what the purpose of that person or situation at that particular time but eventually, we are able to take something from each experience and grow as individuals. I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, or even a year from now. But I do know that I will take each day ONE at a time.
I need to laugh more, relax more, and have more fun! And I plan to do just that and you're welcome to come along if you like....
Well, I start dental school very soon (a couple months) and I am too excited...lol. For as long as I can remember I always wanted to be a dentist and I have dedicated myself to accomplishing that goal. These past two years since I graduated from Howard University I have gone through soo much to get to this point (you just don't know...). I am so grateful that things are finally working out. I've realized that we plan certain things to happen at times most convenient for us, but God doesn't always plan things on our time, but always on His time. I feel when I stopped trying to control everything, God was finally able to work and now with Him holding my hand I'll be able to finish and remain successful.
I have been trying to get a bunch of socializing out of my system before school starts, because I won't have time for anything or anybody. So far, things have been quite interesting. The second I started going out regularly, I started to meet people immediately. I've met some interesting characters...lol, it's fun none the less. I love poetry, being at HU enhanced my love for poetry and 'the arts' in general. I love going to museums, reading books, meeting writers, African American art, etc. A friend of mines introduced me to 'They Say Restaurant" in Detroit and every Thursday I'm there listening to a very talented poet Marsha Carter. It is soo nice to go some place where the atmosphere is real relaxed and I can just chill and listen to local talent. I feel like a regular...lol, I feel bad if I miss a night. I'll miss it when I start school, I won't have much time during the week, maybe on the weekends?
My sister mentioned something yesterday that I've been thinking about all day. She said something along the lines of don't deny the past, but embrace it (wise for a 19 yr old..lol). I feel everything happens for a reason and every person we meet, comes into our lives for a reason. We may not understand what the purpose of that person or situation at that particular time but eventually, we are able to take something from each experience and grow as individuals. I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, or even a year from now. But I do know that I will take each day ONE at a time.
I need to laugh more, relax more, and have more fun! And I plan to do just that and you're welcome to come along if you like....
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