I am so relieved, the semester is more than half way done. I'm tried at this point and I don't know if I'm really liking it here. I'm not sure what it is, but I feel no connection to the university. I feel like 'I fell' into being here at Michigan and it was never planned. It's a learning experience and I feel everything happens for a reason. We'll see what happens.
Next week, I finally have a less stressful week...lol. We have been in an exam period for the last 3 weeks. Hopefully, I'll get to catch up on some rest and start working on a few projects I have going on outside of academics for this summer.
~Thoughts of a Lady
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Ladybugs and Nature....
I came home today and ladybugs were all over the place, the doors and windows, just everywhere. Ladybugs are okay I guess, but they are still bugs and I'm not that crazy about bugs.
One night I was coming home and I was going up the stairs leading to my apartment and a raccoon was digging in someones trash, it started watching me as much as I was watching him. It's eyes stood out so much because of the dark strip across their eyes, it was scary...lol. And then another night I'm rushing to get home because it is freezing outside, and I almost run into a deer...LOL. I see them at the most random times and they are use to people, not cool at all. It scared me to death...
I'm a city girl! I lived in Texas for awhile, but that's the most rural I've gotten. I don't like this 'nature' experience...lol. This is going to take some time to get use to, CLEARLY!
~Thoughts of A Lady
One night I was coming home and I was going up the stairs leading to my apartment and a raccoon was digging in someones trash, it started watching me as much as I was watching him. It's eyes stood out so much because of the dark strip across their eyes, it was scary...lol. And then another night I'm rushing to get home because it is freezing outside, and I almost run into a deer...LOL. I see them at the most random times and they are use to people, not cool at all. It scared me to death...
I'm a city girl! I lived in Texas for awhile, but that's the most rural I've gotten. I don't like this 'nature' experience...lol. This is going to take some time to get use to, CLEARLY!
~Thoughts of A Lady
Friday, October 16, 2009
On the Grind....
Busy, Busy, Busy....lol.
If it isn't one thing it's something else. But I am still really excited about dental school and getting things accomplished. When I get discouraged, that's when I just remember the payoff in the end is worth the demand now. Everyone is real nice here and encouraging, including the students. I've been trying to get in contact with everyone possible that I feel will be able to guide me. Thus far, things seems to be going in a positive direction. I've been through so much and I feel someone or something gets in the way whenever I feel I finally have a chance. I've learned to take things slowly and one step at a time, and not rush what God has in store for me, and I feel it'll be something GREAT!
As far as love goes, I am still SINGLE...lol. Guess what??? I'm fine with that, I'm meeting so many different people right now, who knows what may happen or who I may meet.
My birthday is coming up in November! I'm excited, I think I might have to do a celebration here in A.Arbor and one in Detroit. But I'll see how things go, the closer the date I'll figure things out. Well, keep me in your prayers!
Lady
If it isn't one thing it's something else. But I am still really excited about dental school and getting things accomplished. When I get discouraged, that's when I just remember the payoff in the end is worth the demand now. Everyone is real nice here and encouraging, including the students. I've been trying to get in contact with everyone possible that I feel will be able to guide me. Thus far, things seems to be going in a positive direction. I've been through so much and I feel someone or something gets in the way whenever I feel I finally have a chance. I've learned to take things slowly and one step at a time, and not rush what God has in store for me, and I feel it'll be something GREAT!
As far as love goes, I am still SINGLE...lol. Guess what??? I'm fine with that, I'm meeting so many different people right now, who knows what may happen or who I may meet.
My birthday is coming up in November! I'm excited, I think I might have to do a celebration here in A.Arbor and one in Detroit. But I'll see how things go, the closer the date I'll figure things out. Well, keep me in your prayers!
Lady
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Directions
My sense of direction is the absolute worse! I don't even think a GPS would help me in anyway because that's how off I can be at times when it comes to directions...lol. Today, I got so turned around, I personally decided that I'm not driving around here anymore, unless someone is with me who knows the area. I waste sooo much gas driving around lost, and I can only blame myself *sigh*.
My orientation went okay, my tour around the dental school was terrible. Those girls who were over our group had no idea what they were suppose to be doing. I still don't know where anything is, however most of my classes this semester are in the same room or the room is just down the hall from the main doors. So, thank goodness for that.
I'm stressed yet again about finances, I pray everything works out!!
I got my typodont today and I was soo excited...lol. They're model teeth, and they're mine to play with...lol. It really was the highlight of my day ;)
Tell me why my room mate, already has a boo??? LOL They just met yesterday and he's either extremely friendly or he's slightly interested. He asked if they can do laundry together??? Classes haven't even started yet...lol. But I say, 'gone head girl'...lol.
Well, I'm tired and I need to look over some things for classes.
~Thoughts of a Lady~
My orientation went okay, my tour around the dental school was terrible. Those girls who were over our group had no idea what they were suppose to be doing. I still don't know where anything is, however most of my classes this semester are in the same room or the room is just down the hall from the main doors. So, thank goodness for that.
I'm stressed yet again about finances, I pray everything works out!!
I got my typodont today and I was soo excited...lol. They're model teeth, and they're mine to play with...lol. It really was the highlight of my day ;)
Tell me why my room mate, already has a boo??? LOL They just met yesterday and he's either extremely friendly or he's slightly interested. He asked if they can do laundry together??? Classes haven't even started yet...lol. But I say, 'gone head girl'...lol.
Well, I'm tired and I need to look over some things for classes.
~Thoughts of a Lady~
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
The Past Returns
I'm getting more accustomed to life out here in AA. Things are falling into place and that's always a good thing. I know where my classes are now and the bus system isn't so scary anymore...lol. But it does take awhile to get from one point to the next, so I believe I'll have to leave earlier than expected to get to places on time. I have a job now too! Thank goodness, I'll be able to work the weekends and one night a week at a cafe on campus. It shouldn't interfere with my study time because the hours are flexible and I don't have long shifts to work. I'm excited :) !!!
Guess what??? Today, the guy I could possibly say was my 'first love' contacted me. I remember when we first started 'talking', I talked to him about everything, all day - everyday. I think I was like 15 or 16yrs old at the time. He was my best friend. It seems like when I went off to HU that's when we really lost contact with one another. I would hear from him every now and then, but during those times we would get into arguments or something negative would happen. I honestly felt like he was shutting me out. I would call him and he wouldn't answer or call me back. He seemed angry with me and he changed. It was soo much tension between us, I didn't feel good about the situation, and it hurt me that he was no longer open with me. Granted, I did feel like we were growing apart and my feelings for him had changed. In between that time, I was 'dating' other people. But somehow I would always go back to him in my mind.
Anyway, a few years went by and we lost contact and next time I talked to him he told me he was married and had a daughter... I wasn't mad or upset or jealous, I was genuinely happy for him. However, I was again hurt because he never said anything to me. Again he completely left me out. I honestly considered him one of my best friends and that's something you share with your friends and loved ones.
Well, that was about two years ago and today he contacted me. He sent me pictures of his daughters and they're beautiful. I'm really happy for him. The reason I feel I want to pull away from him, is because I don't want to go there again and I am not one to play with fire. He's a married man now with children and I feel there comes a point when you out grow one another. He said some things to me today that make me think he still has those feelings from when we were younger and that is not going to work...lol. I'm single, no children, in school and we're on two different pathways in life. It took so much for me to let him and that situation go and sometimes I think these men want to pull you back in and I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN...lol.
Of course we can be friends and share life's monumental moments, but lets leave it as that. I don't feel we should bring up the past because we're beyond that point now.
Why do relationships have to be soo complicated??? Oh well, such is life...lol.
~Lady
Guess what??? Today, the guy I could possibly say was my 'first love' contacted me. I remember when we first started 'talking', I talked to him about everything, all day - everyday. I think I was like 15 or 16yrs old at the time. He was my best friend. It seems like when I went off to HU that's when we really lost contact with one another. I would hear from him every now and then, but during those times we would get into arguments or something negative would happen. I honestly felt like he was shutting me out. I would call him and he wouldn't answer or call me back. He seemed angry with me and he changed. It was soo much tension between us, I didn't feel good about the situation, and it hurt me that he was no longer open with me. Granted, I did feel like we were growing apart and my feelings for him had changed. In between that time, I was 'dating' other people. But somehow I would always go back to him in my mind.
Anyway, a few years went by and we lost contact and next time I talked to him he told me he was married and had a daughter... I wasn't mad or upset or jealous, I was genuinely happy for him. However, I was again hurt because he never said anything to me. Again he completely left me out. I honestly considered him one of my best friends and that's something you share with your friends and loved ones.
Well, that was about two years ago and today he contacted me. He sent me pictures of his daughters and they're beautiful. I'm really happy for him. The reason I feel I want to pull away from him, is because I don't want to go there again and I am not one to play with fire. He's a married man now with children and I feel there comes a point when you out grow one another. He said some things to me today that make me think he still has those feelings from when we were younger and that is not going to work...lol. I'm single, no children, in school and we're on two different pathways in life. It took so much for me to let him and that situation go and sometimes I think these men want to pull you back in and I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN...lol.
Of course we can be friends and share life's monumental moments, but lets leave it as that. I don't feel we should bring up the past because we're beyond that point now.
Why do relationships have to be soo complicated??? Oh well, such is life...lol.
~Lady
Saturday, August 29, 2009
New Experiences
Well, I'm officially settled in at University of Michigan. It's okay so far. Classes haven't started yet so I can only speak on my apartment, roommate, and few students I've seen...lol. Next week I have a second orientation at the dental school and it'll be all day. I'll meet more students and hopefully make some networking connections to get myself where I want to be.
My apartment is nice, I like it a lot. It's not real huge or anything, but I have enough space for me and if someone wanted to stay it wouldn't be uncomfortable. My color scheme is like a burgundy and dark brown. Somewhat nontraditional for me because I usually do bright colors or pastels. So, this is a nice change and a little more mature I guess...lol. It's more like warm colors, maybe It'll help me stay more focused...lol.
My roommate seems cool so far. We seem to be like minded so that works well in terms of cleaning and quiet...lol.
All I've seen since I've been here are people from Asian countries. And also, a few from middle eastern countries. I have to change my way of thinking because at HU when I heard international students it was those from Trinidad & Tobago, Jamaica, or Africa. It's okay though, I knew that coming in things would be a completely different. Nothing can compare to my experience at Howard University, that's where I 'grew up' ...lol, and found myself. I'll just learn even more about myself as a individual and be a better person for it.
My use to be 'friend', went here a long time ago and he didn't like it. But while he was here and I was at HU our friendship really grew because we shared our experiences with each other. I haven't spoken to him in almost 2 1/2 years now, but I honestly do miss his friendship, especially now that I'm here. (Dang...lol) But I dont see us reuniting and that's fine, it's okay to miss people :)
A friend of mine from works lives out here in Ann Arbor and he wants to go out to lunch on Tuesday, so that'll be good before I get consumed with classes. Did I mention I have 7 classes?? ?? One in the medical school and all the others in the dental school. I'm excited, I've always wanted a career in dentistry and this is just the beginning.
My mom is coming up with my books today and she should be here soon, I need to find something to eat...lol. That's one thing I didn't miss about college life (being broke and practically starving..lol). Oh well....
My poet friend has been 'so busy', I haven't really talked to him a lot this week. He seems to be okay though, he has a feature down here in mid September, so I told him I'll go. We'll see how this goes, if anything I just need a friend right now and to keep things as simple as possible :)
~Lady
My apartment is nice, I like it a lot. It's not real huge or anything, but I have enough space for me and if someone wanted to stay it wouldn't be uncomfortable. My color scheme is like a burgundy and dark brown. Somewhat nontraditional for me because I usually do bright colors or pastels. So, this is a nice change and a little more mature I guess...lol. It's more like warm colors, maybe It'll help me stay more focused...lol.
My roommate seems cool so far. We seem to be like minded so that works well in terms of cleaning and quiet...lol.
All I've seen since I've been here are people from Asian countries. And also, a few from middle eastern countries. I have to change my way of thinking because at HU when I heard international students it was those from Trinidad & Tobago, Jamaica, or Africa. It's okay though, I knew that coming in things would be a completely different. Nothing can compare to my experience at Howard University, that's where I 'grew up' ...lol, and found myself. I'll just learn even more about myself as a individual and be a better person for it.
My use to be 'friend', went here a long time ago and he didn't like it. But while he was here and I was at HU our friendship really grew because we shared our experiences with each other. I haven't spoken to him in almost 2 1/2 years now, but I honestly do miss his friendship, especially now that I'm here. (Dang...lol) But I dont see us reuniting and that's fine, it's okay to miss people :)
A friend of mine from works lives out here in Ann Arbor and he wants to go out to lunch on Tuesday, so that'll be good before I get consumed with classes. Did I mention I have 7 classes?? ?? One in the medical school and all the others in the dental school. I'm excited, I've always wanted a career in dentistry and this is just the beginning.
My mom is coming up with my books today and she should be here soon, I need to find something to eat...lol. That's one thing I didn't miss about college life (being broke and practically starving..lol). Oh well....
My poet friend has been 'so busy', I haven't really talked to him a lot this week. He seems to be okay though, he has a feature down here in mid September, so I told him I'll go. We'll see how this goes, if anything I just need a friend right now and to keep things as simple as possible :)
~Lady
Monday, June 22, 2009
TIME...Tick Tock
Can you believe it's the end of June already? I feel like I have nothing ready for school. I have a thousand things to do and no time to do it. I need to make a check list and just run down the list as fast as possible. When things are not clean or clear around me, I feel cluttered in my head. I feel as if I haven't gotten anything accomplished, and I need to fix that feeling ASAP!
With every pay check I've been getting, I've been buying things I need for school here and there, so that when school starts I dont have a lot to get and ZERO in the bank...lol. I bought huge storage containers to start figuring out what I need and don't need, and try to get rid of some of this clutter. I'm ready for school mentally, but at the same time I feel not ready physically if that makes sense. Well, hopefully by August I'm ready on both ends!!!
I'm getting bored with my poet friend. He hasn't even taken me out yet and I haven't talked to him in about a week. I know I'm having more fun than anything else in this situation, but my mind changes so frequently. Actually, I haven't really liked anyone in a few years now. I've dated a lot, but I haven't been serious about anyone. I guess when I really really like someone I'll know and I won't have all these hesitations or doubts.
But I'm starting school soon anyway and I won't have as much free time as I do now, but I've told that to everyone. It's either now or never, I'll meet new ppl and you never know what will happen.
I've been so tired lately, and I know it's because I'm stressing out. And whenever I'm about to end a project, job, school, etc. I get real tired of everything and I get in that mode of "I'm ready to go, and move on to the next." I just want school to start and have everything magically work out at a snap of my fingers...lol. However, life doesn't work like that, no matter how bad I want it to.
I'm about to try and finish up some loose ends, hopefully the next time I'll be in a better spirit...lol.
~Lady
With every pay check I've been getting, I've been buying things I need for school here and there, so that when school starts I dont have a lot to get and ZERO in the bank...lol. I bought huge storage containers to start figuring out what I need and don't need, and try to get rid of some of this clutter. I'm ready for school mentally, but at the same time I feel not ready physically if that makes sense. Well, hopefully by August I'm ready on both ends!!!
I'm getting bored with my poet friend. He hasn't even taken me out yet and I haven't talked to him in about a week. I know I'm having more fun than anything else in this situation, but my mind changes so frequently. Actually, I haven't really liked anyone in a few years now. I've dated a lot, but I haven't been serious about anyone. I guess when I really really like someone I'll know and I won't have all these hesitations or doubts.
But I'm starting school soon anyway and I won't have as much free time as I do now, but I've told that to everyone. It's either now or never, I'll meet new ppl and you never know what will happen.
I've been so tired lately, and I know it's because I'm stressing out. And whenever I'm about to end a project, job, school, etc. I get real tired of everything and I get in that mode of "I'm ready to go, and move on to the next." I just want school to start and have everything magically work out at a snap of my fingers...lol. However, life doesn't work like that, no matter how bad I want it to.
I'm about to try and finish up some loose ends, hopefully the next time I'll be in a better spirit...lol.
~Lady
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Summer Fun!
I'm still so excited...lol!
Last night me and my girls went to see Chrisette Michele, Musiq Soulchild, and Anthony Hamilton in concert! It was soo good. I absolutely love Musiq, I was jammin' to all of his songs...lol. My favorite song at the moment is 'So Beautiful', that is a beautiful song! And I will say the three of us girls were way too cute...lol. I really needed that stress relief, I was so relaxed afterwards, it was truly a good time. I'll miss these times when school starts :(
Things are the same with my poet friend, we haven't been out yet on a date or anything. We call and text most of the time. I stay laughing around him, I don't know he's just funny. I'm not sure how serious I want this to be, but everyone is telling me to see what happens. I'm trying but that's hard for me to do, I analyze EVERYTHING...sigh. He is really a performer with a performer schedule, he never has time. I honestly feel he's doing too much, but I'm new to this performer thing so I don't really know how much of your time is consumed. I imagine it's hard and time consuming to promote yourself constantly. PLEASE BUY HIS CD FAST, SO HE HAS MORE TIME FOR ME....LOL!
Last Tuesday was fun...lol! I made a new friend at Lola's :), of course a poet. He's a very nice person and his son is a cutie too...lol, but a little young for me. It's always good to make friends because you never know how you could help someone or vice versa. And oh my goodness, this other guy me and my girl met at Lola's a couple weeks back fell real hard for her and was practically stalking her for a week, but I'm sooo glad she finally got that taken care of Tuesday. 'Niceness' was not the way to deal with him...he didn't realize how ridiculous he was acting.
I have no energy, I'm tired, kinda sick, I feel like I should be older than I am....lol. I think I'm doing too much socially, but I know when school starts no one will see me. I need to get all this out of my system now, so I can focus. I'm looking forward to school, I love being in a school setting, meeting with new people all the time, and learning. I already planned what programs and things I want to get involved in ...lol. At HU, I did a lot on campus, I knew soo many people, and participated in a lot of things and I want to do the same at UofM , but not on the same level. My course work will be a lot more demanding this time around and I understand I have to approach things differently, but I'm ready and excited!
I'm a little stressed about my financial situation when school starts, that's one area I'm not looking forward to, but I pray everything will work out for the best. I'll have to make some changes and arrange things differently to make everything work, but I keep telling myself I'm sure everything will be fine, just have faith.
Well, if you have some extra cash, let me know...lol. TTYL
Last night me and my girls went to see Chrisette Michele, Musiq Soulchild, and Anthony Hamilton in concert! It was soo good. I absolutely love Musiq, I was jammin' to all of his songs...lol. My favorite song at the moment is 'So Beautiful', that is a beautiful song! And I will say the three of us girls were way too cute...lol. I really needed that stress relief, I was so relaxed afterwards, it was truly a good time. I'll miss these times when school starts :(
Things are the same with my poet friend, we haven't been out yet on a date or anything. We call and text most of the time. I stay laughing around him, I don't know he's just funny. I'm not sure how serious I want this to be, but everyone is telling me to see what happens. I'm trying but that's hard for me to do, I analyze EVERYTHING...sigh. He is really a performer with a performer schedule, he never has time. I honestly feel he's doing too much, but I'm new to this performer thing so I don't really know how much of your time is consumed. I imagine it's hard and time consuming to promote yourself constantly. PLEASE BUY HIS CD FAST, SO HE HAS MORE TIME FOR ME....LOL!
Last Tuesday was fun...lol! I made a new friend at Lola's :), of course a poet. He's a very nice person and his son is a cutie too...lol, but a little young for me. It's always good to make friends because you never know how you could help someone or vice versa. And oh my goodness, this other guy me and my girl met at Lola's a couple weeks back fell real hard for her and was practically stalking her for a week, but I'm sooo glad she finally got that taken care of Tuesday. 'Niceness' was not the way to deal with him...he didn't realize how ridiculous he was acting.
I have no energy, I'm tired, kinda sick, I feel like I should be older than I am....lol. I think I'm doing too much socially, but I know when school starts no one will see me. I need to get all this out of my system now, so I can focus. I'm looking forward to school, I love being in a school setting, meeting with new people all the time, and learning. I already planned what programs and things I want to get involved in ...lol. At HU, I did a lot on campus, I knew soo many people, and participated in a lot of things and I want to do the same at UofM , but not on the same level. My course work will be a lot more demanding this time around and I understand I have to approach things differently, but I'm ready and excited!
I'm a little stressed about my financial situation when school starts, that's one area I'm not looking forward to, but I pray everything will work out for the best. I'll have to make some changes and arrange things differently to make everything work, but I keep telling myself I'm sure everything will be fine, just have faith.
Well, if you have some extra cash, let me know...lol. TTYL
Monday, June 8, 2009
Life 101
I tried one of these blogs a long time ago and it helped me release some stress, so I thought I'd try again...
Well, I start dental school very soon (a couple months) and I am too excited...lol. For as long as I can remember I always wanted to be a dentist and I have dedicated myself to accomplishing that goal. These past two years since I graduated from Howard University I have gone through soo much to get to this point (you just don't know...). I am so grateful that things are finally working out. I've realized that we plan certain things to happen at times most convenient for us, but God doesn't always plan things on our time, but always on His time. I feel when I stopped trying to control everything, God was finally able to work and now with Him holding my hand I'll be able to finish and remain successful.
I have been trying to get a bunch of socializing out of my system before school starts, because I won't have time for anything or anybody. So far, things have been quite interesting. The second I started going out regularly, I started to meet people immediately. I've met some interesting characters...lol, it's fun none the less. I love poetry, being at HU enhanced my love for poetry and 'the arts' in general. I love going to museums, reading books, meeting writers, African American art, etc. A friend of mines introduced me to 'They Say Restaurant" in Detroit and every Thursday I'm there listening to a very talented poet Marsha Carter. It is soo nice to go some place where the atmosphere is real relaxed and I can just chill and listen to local talent. I feel like a regular...lol, I feel bad if I miss a night. I'll miss it when I start school, I won't have much time during the week, maybe on the weekends?
My sister mentioned something yesterday that I've been thinking about all day. She said something along the lines of don't deny the past, but embrace it (wise for a 19 yr old..lol). I feel everything happens for a reason and every person we meet, comes into our lives for a reason. We may not understand what the purpose of that person or situation at that particular time but eventually, we are able to take something from each experience and grow as individuals. I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, or even a year from now. But I do know that I will take each day ONE at a time.
I need to laugh more, relax more, and have more fun! And I plan to do just that and you're welcome to come along if you like....
Well, I start dental school very soon (a couple months) and I am too excited...lol. For as long as I can remember I always wanted to be a dentist and I have dedicated myself to accomplishing that goal. These past two years since I graduated from Howard University I have gone through soo much to get to this point (you just don't know...). I am so grateful that things are finally working out. I've realized that we plan certain things to happen at times most convenient for us, but God doesn't always plan things on our time, but always on His time. I feel when I stopped trying to control everything, God was finally able to work and now with Him holding my hand I'll be able to finish and remain successful.
I have been trying to get a bunch of socializing out of my system before school starts, because I won't have time for anything or anybody. So far, things have been quite interesting. The second I started going out regularly, I started to meet people immediately. I've met some interesting characters...lol, it's fun none the less. I love poetry, being at HU enhanced my love for poetry and 'the arts' in general. I love going to museums, reading books, meeting writers, African American art, etc. A friend of mines introduced me to 'They Say Restaurant" in Detroit and every Thursday I'm there listening to a very talented poet Marsha Carter. It is soo nice to go some place where the atmosphere is real relaxed and I can just chill and listen to local talent. I feel like a regular...lol, I feel bad if I miss a night. I'll miss it when I start school, I won't have much time during the week, maybe on the weekends?
My sister mentioned something yesterday that I've been thinking about all day. She said something along the lines of don't deny the past, but embrace it (wise for a 19 yr old..lol). I feel everything happens for a reason and every person we meet, comes into our lives for a reason. We may not understand what the purpose of that person or situation at that particular time but eventually, we are able to take something from each experience and grow as individuals. I have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, or even a year from now. But I do know that I will take each day ONE at a time.
I need to laugh more, relax more, and have more fun! And I plan to do just that and you're welcome to come along if you like....
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